Monday, November 06, 2006
An Unwanted Journey: Day 0348 - Gambling on Recurrence
This week I'm off on a business trip to Las Vegas. Yeah, that's right...a business trip! Will there be some gambling involved? Maybe. It depends on whether the Fun and Sun hotel/casino package's promise of $150 of casino dollars can be used for gambling. If so, then I will certainly be doing some evening slot machine analysis. I'm not much of a gambler, so it's bound to be experimental.
Gambling with cancer recurrence is something else again. Certainly if I were to decide that since my treatment was apparently successful, I can do whatever I like with nutrition and fitness, then that would constitute gambling with recurrence in my books. But beyond that fairly obvious observation, it becomes much harder to know whether one is gambling or simply living.
What would you say, for instance, about eating red meat or drinking wine? Does that constitute gambling? What about a failure to eat lots and lots of dietary fibre? Or greens? Or having a beer on the weekend? What about swearing at stupid drivers on the road? Is that needless stress in one's life? Should I become a dedicated yoga enthusiast? Should simply walking and doing some weight training constitute gambling?
I don't know the answer to most of these questions, nor do I even know if they are worth asking. All I know for certain is that the life given to me should be lived consciously and deliberately with abundant gratitude. While I'm in Las Vegas, I'm pretty sure that means at least 2 or 3 great meals with my business colleagues, perhaps tipping a glass or two, perhaps enjoying some typical Vegas entertainment, all the while being thankful that I don't have to live there!